This site is becoming a clusterbuck of drama

All right, I was thinking the other day of opening up about myself, and letting you guys see a side of me that you haven't really been exposed to yet. However, it seems like we already got a lot of hot water going on right now.

Then I thought to myself, "Ah, ok then, I'll just wait for this to all die down, then I'll start talking about my own problems/trauma/etc."

"BUT WAIT," I then thought, "Wouldn't it be annoying if, after everyone was tired from listening to everypony else, I start blabbing? We'd be all like, 'Dang, not again,' and stuff."

So my question for you all is...

Do you want me to open up now or later?

No, I don't want you to feel bad about anything because of me. Everyone was all happy about revealing their true identities and expressing thanks for all the good times and I just kinda ruined it. I'm sorry. 

If it's something you feel needs to get out there, then go ahead. I'd like I hear it, anyways, before I take my leave :)

Well Legend, that's for you to decide. We're a very open site after all, and if anypony is discriminated we have enough mods to piledrive the discriminator into the kerb. If you don't feel ready, we won't force you to open up. But when you do, we'll be here for you.

And Calla? You didn't ruin it. We all feel like that sometimes, and you shouldn't keep your mouth shut just because you feel you'll make everypony else depressed.

Very much aware of the hypocrisy thank you

Ok, here it goes. First, I'd like to make a few points.

1.) Everypony on this site is completely third party in this situation (no matter how much it may seem like it isn't) on this topic.

2.) This is not an issue similar to anything that most of you have heard of before. It's not a divorce, it's not a break up, it's nothing to do with social cliques, etc.

3.) What I am about to say is very, VERY hard for me to describe due to the nature of the problem, so if anything seems odd in my explanation, do not hesitate to ask ANY question you may have.

4.) All comments are welcome, and I can understand constructive criticism when I see it. Be warned, though, I may get a little cross if I'm given advice that I've already been given.

5.) If the number 4 point comes along and I get cross, remember point number 1.

6.) If it seems like I'm holding something back, it's usually because I am, and that probably means I need help with getting the words out.


Ok, now that's understood, I should probably start by talking about my mental deficiencies. I have ADHD, and I also have another problem that's not common enough to have a name of its own. I like to call it "the Virgo Syndrome" since that zodiac seems to fit it quite nicely.

Basically, I think too analytically, overthink too much, and have a hard time expressing most emotions. I also have a very literal method of thinking. My doctor originally said I have autistic characteristics without having autism. In a nutshell, it means I have enough of a mental disorder to have trouble in a social setting, but I don't have enough of a mental disorder for it to be recognized, treated for, and have a guide n' all that help stuff.

I want to make sure those listening understand what I am trying to describe here. Do you understand what I have just said?

Yup.

Yes.

EEEEYUP!

Makes sense
((SORRY IM JUST LURKING AND AM READING THIS, I'M DAMN FASCINATED))

Are you Walter Bishop from Fringe?

JK.

I get what you mean. I can't say with certainty that im anywhere completely understanding but i think i can get a vague idea. I get like that sometimes too. The whole 'overly analitical' part that is. I get that way over distracting things and then next thing i know i just spent 2 hours doing nothing but felt busy.